I have so many lapses in my part as a wife. I never attended some of my responsibilities towards my husband. I regret I never been a good one, I’m so selfish. Sometimes I forgot to kiss him every time he arrived home from work, prepare him food before leaving and even give him a coffee in the morning. I never heard any words from him complaining but I am too guilty even submitting to him in many ways is very hard for me. I need to learn more about life and I know I will learn it as the years to come.

Maybe I am out of the agenda or shall I say I am excluded in their affair but I cannot control myself. I was really affected by the words that stroked and impolitely thrown to my cousin. It’s unfair to her. Maybe she has also some lapses of what she was doing but she does not deserve what she received and what’s being blamed to her. Even the old issues and some misunderstanding before all are now opened up. I know what my cousin felt now, full of hate, hopelessness, guilt maybe and shame. So glad that she shared her problem to me and that I gave some advises. It’s not easy to pick up what has been broken. Maybe this will create a big gap between them, many friendship ended but still hoping that all things will be solved and reconciled according to His will.

We are discussing about father’s retirement next month after twenty four years of faithful service to Davao del Norte Electric Cooperatives (DANECO), a big electric company that supply current to many places in and out of the region. It is mandatory for them to resign after sixty years of age. Well, aside of that, we are also planning what would be a good investment to have using my father’s retirement fee. He is worthy to receive such payment in exchange of his valuable effort and consumed part of his energy working in that company.

Today the choir members of our church will be going to Cebu, including my mom and my sister; they will be performing every night in front of hundreds of people. How lucky they are coz they were chosen as singers in the National Grace convention, celebrated annually. They will ride by airplane and many of them are first timers in airplane experience. They are all twenty and they are so excited for their one hour travel going to Cebu city.

I really miss the moment when I was still pregnant, still carrying my baby in my womb. I miss my big tummy. The maternity dress that I wore, the special treatment people gave me, he! And most of all I miss riding to my wooden swing set which father bought for me, which was my favorite place while I was still pregnant. Now my baby is seven months old already. I can’t imagine she grows very fast, Praise God. I just realized that everything has an end so we must treasure every moment and event of our life while we still can.

A friend of us also our helper lost her mobile phone yesterday, she left it accidentally at our neighbor’s store without her notice and someone get it, getting her mobile phone back is impossible, since its hard to trace because many people come and go to that store. This is also a lesson to her and to us to be careful next time in handling our things. We just comforted and telling her that everything happens is with a purpose

As what my hubby always told me, Family bonding is important to strengthen the foundation of the family; to get out once in a while and be relaxed and enjoy each other’s company. Last week we went out to the city to witness the opening of lights of the Tagum City giant Christmas tree; the tallest Christmas tree of the region. Twa’s very beautiful, very bright, the color of lights were sparkling and really catching to the eyes. So many people also were there in fact we got a hard time looking for a parking space. That day was a very memorable day for us; we ate ice cream and peanuts under the Giant Christmas Tree.

I can’t understand why some people getting abusive sometimes. It is okay to give help to those who are needy but it is not good to tolerate them again and again. Early this morning while we were still sleeping one woman who is 5 months pregnant in her sixth baby came and asked monetary assistance because according to her, her husband is sick, she said they don’t have food to eat this day, we gave her and before she leave she asked again little amount for fare. That woman was asking help for two times already with the same reason. Still ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive’ this is true and biblical.

As we open our eyes every morning we should thank the Lord for we still able to open our eyes from all the night rest, a good sleep, for renewing our tired body and for keeping us safe always. Another day to live and to do the things we ought to do. There are so much to ponder and to thank for; we just don’t notice some of it like the free air that we breathe, for allowing the sun to raise again. From these things we can say that God is there, indeed the source and creator of everything.

One thing I love about my baby who is 2 months old now is that; she always gave me a smile after I feed her or every time she’s satisfied with her hunger, since it is not yet usual to her to smile to anyone. How sweet and good to see that my baby is trying to express her thanks in her own little way by smiling. Just a smile from her its all enough for me. I always thank the Lord for giving me milk abundant for my baby. I’ll make sure that my baby will be pure breastfeed until six moths.

I am so happy, thankful and overwhelmed because my husband bought me some bread and juice this morning, he left from work just to give it to me and then back to work again, how thoughtful he was, showing that he cares for me, that was just a small thing but for me it means a lot. It made my day.

I can still remember the pain I experienced during my labor and delivery one month and half ago. I can’t describe the pain it’s like killing me softly. God is really good for putting interval to it. There is always a reward, after all the pain I suffered still no one can compare the feeling when I saw my cute 8.3lbs baby girl for the first time. I waited for 9months and it’s really worth waiting. I thanked and praised God for everything He has done and still be doing in my life.

”God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble” - Psalm 46:1 (KJV)

Everyone of us has our own burdens and stories, and there are always times when we are so down, so confused and hurt, we don’t know what to do feeling we are in the deepest of the depth of despair, but when we call out to Him, He will comfort us and give ways for us to go, guide us and give us wisdom in our decisions.

After our devotion, I went back upstairs and eat breakfast while talking to the helper in arabic. We had a great time even I only speak a little. So good of her to teach me and correct me if my sentence were correct.

After awhile, I went to the office where we study and practicing some sentences with my other 2 language classmate. It was hard to practice because no one knows if our sentences are correct or not.hhahaa.

Today, I was kind of not digesting what I read. I was out of focus. I didn’t know why. Maybe due to hormones. hahahaha. =)

In our team devotion, we read Matthew 6:5-16. It talks about the prayer and fasting. The Lord instruct us that when we pray we should go inside our room and when we fast we should not let others know that we are fasting because God will reward reward which are done in secret. I think God instruct us these because He wants us to focus on Him and not focus on other people. By doing so we will have great intimacy with God. When we are showing off to other people about being prayerful in public, our focus will not be in God but to men and pride develops somewhere there and will have the tendency to compare ourselves as holy than to others. Are Christians we should be careful how we live our lives.