I am so sad the other day. A pregnant patient handed me her ultrasound result. She had a prenatal check up earlier that day and was advised to have an ultrasound because when the midwife who checked her did not hear the heart beat of the baby. It is sad to know that her baby is already died inside the womb or it is called fetal demise. She was crying. It broke my heart. She is just only 19 weeks pregnant. There are so many factors to consider why it happens.

My last day of my work was on March 30, 2008 prenatal clinic. We did just a normal prenatal day. We had patients’ devotion bible study and health teachings. There were about 70 patients waiting to be checked. I was waiting for the time when we could start our long day. I was wondering why it took so long for my co-midwife doing her health teaching. I was about to go in to the room to remind her that the time is up but my friend hindered me in doing so and ushered me to the other room which I did not mind. To my surprise the reason why it took too long was my friends and our patients were taking thorns out from the roses stem. I was called to sit in front of them. I did not know why my tears just kept on comning out even before I took a sit. Each patients handed me those roses. What a touching moment. I felt so loved. There were patients who were crying, some thanked me, some hugged me for a long time and some were asking why I should leave. I was so surprised. It was hard but it was good to know that I touched patients’ lives.